Changing Things Up

Hey friends! How are you? I hope you had a wonderful weekend. Ours was low key and fun. We had a cousin’s birthday party on Saturday, followed by some epic ramen for dinner.

On Sunday the hubs and I got in a little brunch/ kayaking date along the bay while my bestie Camille watched the boys.


As you may notice I have made some changes to this little blog. I wanted to share with you why.

While I love talking about my struggles as a fatty, and everyone’s feedback has been so amazing and positive, I have found the experience personally quite difficult. I feel that i’m focused obsessed with my weight and getting in shape and putting way too much pressure on myself. In my experience when I am trying to lose weight, the more I talk and obsess about it, the less I actually make better choices but instead rationalize that I “deserve” this cheat meal day week. It becomes a whole issue of what I can’t eat instead of making healthier decisions. So I am going to continue on my diet and fitness journey but keep those successes and failures a little closer to the vest.




Secondly, there is SO much I want to share with you and I felt that focusing solely on diet kept me from unleashing all of my true greatness 🙂 For those of you who know me personally, you know what a large part entertaining, cooking, and family play in my life. I want to incorporate these parts of my life to into the blog as well, and I look forward to sharing my passions with you!

Stay tuned for lots of exciting things to come!

Until next time,



Week 2 Weight Watchers Recap

Hey there! Happy Monday!

I hope your weekend was awesome. We kept it low key around here. My mother in law was in town so we had a little extra help with the kiddos which is always a plus. Saturday we went out to breakfast, I had an MRI for my knee (I hope I get some answers soon), and then a little date night with the hubs. Sunday was groceries, laundry, cooking, and chillaxin per usual.

Oh yeah, I also lost another 1.8lbs, 5.4lbs total in the past two weeks. Booyah!




This week was much harder than last week though. My first week I was out of town for work, and super busy. I literally barely had time to eat. Last week I was home with the kiddos on summer time. I have a VERY hard time resisting snacks with them while we watch movies or want to grab fro-yo. What I have found to be my saving grace through this is to make dinner at home as much as possible. As a whole, our family eats pretty healthy, except for dinner time when we are all tired and hangry.  We have a terrible takeout habit that we have been working hard to break but it is SO. EASY. to order in.

I honestly think the invention of apps such as Postmates, Uber Eats, Door Dash, and Amazon now have contributed to the LBS I recently put on. It makes ordering anything so easy and everything is delivered as soon as the food is made. TROUBLE!!!!


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Dinner Delivery


We caved once this week, but hey, Rome wasn’t built in a day.

My goals for this week are:

  1. Be as active as possible with non impact exercises that are safe for my knee.
  2. Make dinner at home 5/7 nights.
  3. Lose 2lbs.

Let me know how you are doing so far this month! Have a great week!



Week 1 of Weight Watchers Recap

Guess who lost weight last week? This chica!


Week 1 Weight Loss


I went into my meeting thinking ok, I’ve been out of town all week and ate dinner out every night, I am going to shoot for a 1.5lb loss because that would get me out of the 100 and somethings 😉 . Shockingly I lost 3.6lbs which gave me a HUGE mental boost to continue on with the program.

Another boost I got was I found out a girlfriend of mine goes to the same location at a different time, so I am going to attend the meetings with her from now on. Having an accountability buddy makes all the difference for me.

Since I am in town all week, and we have a fun weekend ahead of us, I want to stay as on track as possible. There are way more temptations here at home than there were in Yuma! My goals for the week are as follows:

  1. Eat dinner at home Sunday-Friday, NO takeout!
  2. Lose 1.8lbs, I like round numbers on the scale.
  3. Do not self sabotage in the afternoons when I get hangry.


Prickly Utensils


Here is my proposed dinner plan:

Sunday- Shrimp Pasta with Bell peppers and Red Onion

Monday- Teriyaki Tofu with Snap Peas and Rice

Tuesday- Stuffed Pasta Shells

Wednesday- Leftovers

Thursday- Chicken and Broccoli Fettucinni

Friday- Bang Ban Shrimp and Rice

How did the first week of August go for you? What are your diet or fitness goals for the week?

Until next time.


I’m the Worst

Oh hey!  I am just kicking it here in Yuma! It’s been a cool 100+ degrees all week and apparently the internet sucks and my post didn’t publish yesterday. Waaaah! I’m here for work, and it’s been SO crazy that this is the first opportunity I’ve had to talk about my starting Weight Watchers on Monday.


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Weight Watchers


Last week I signed up here for a free meeting. I wanted to get the authentic Weight Watchers experience so I decided to attend a meeting instead of just signing up and following online. In the past I always found that I was the youngest person in the meetings. I also never found them all that helpful but I wanted to take this experiment head on with fresh eyes.

My plan for the first few days is to eat what I have normally been eating and see how many points they are to get a gauge on where the bulk of my calories are coming from and how to manipulate my day to be able to fit my point in without going over or getting hangry. I always have a hard time with mid day binging snacking, so would like to get a hold on that this week.

That was the plan…

For someone who was aiming to hit the ground running on Monday, August 1, I’ve kind of failed. I did have grand plans to right every detail of my experience during my first meeting on Sunday. Pathetically, after seeing that f’ing number on the scale, and the pain from my knee injury (they think I tore my meniscus and possibly my MCL) reality hit.  I spent the rest of Sunday in bed with my dogs watching a marathon of My 600lb life.

Oh man, that’s embarrassing to see in print.


Bad Knee


But, I DID go to a Weight Watchers meeting. This was not my first trip to the Weight Watchers rodeo. When I walked into the meeting located in an office space in a strip mall I found the fluorescent lighting and plastic chairs a bit depressing. I am also not a huge fan of all of the products for sale, especially some of the pre packaged food.

You can probably deduce the mood I was in that day 😉


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I really enjoyed our meeting leader Dave. I found Dave honest, endearing, and most importantly incredibly vested in what he was doing. You could tell immediately that he truly wanted you to succeed and help you do that. Dave started the meeting with an enthusiastic: “Welcome to another episode of Weighs of Our Live!.” Cute.

I basically checked out after that and thought, why am I here? But, there is definitely something about knowing that you will have to get on that scale every week with Dave on the other side of the table smiling, expecting to see the number drop that holds you more accountable. When I weigh in myself I feel like there is always an excuse to skip, or postpone the weigh in until I have “made up” for it.

Full disclosure I have not even had time to read through all of the materials they gave me last week.


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Weight Watchers


I did pack a ton of healthy food and snacks for my trip since I was able to drive.

I have been at a conference since Monday, and have been counting my points with all of my snacks, breakfast, and lunch which I packed. We have been eating out at night so I haven’t been able to completely track dinner. I have been trying to keep it healthy-ish. I will be home tomorrow night, and come hell or high water I will be at that meeting on Sunday.

I also added a Weight Watchers Pinterest board, so make sure to check it out and let me know what kinds of recipes you are most interested in me trying and sharing with you.

How are your August goals coming along?

Until next time.


You Decide My Diet!

Happy Monday Peeps!

I hope you had a great weekend! We spent this past Saturday on the bay enjoying a little staycation for my son’s birthday. It was fun, stressful, and exhausting, all topped off with a cupcake/cookie/taco binge on Saturday. Okay, Sunday too.

Next Monday is the start of August. While people with a much healthier relationship with food wouldn’t wait for a Monday, or the start of a new month to begin eating better, that is clearly not me!

So I have an idea….and I need your help!

Through Instagram I have noticed that the following weight loss/diet plans have some die hard followers:


Whole 30

The Whole 30

Weight Watchers

Weight Watchers



21 Day Fix

21 Day Fix

Ketogenic Diet


Ketogenic Diet

I want YOU to vote and decide which plan I should follow for the entire month of August. Once the votes are in, and the plan decided I will spend the rest of this week researching it. On Monday, August 1, I will begin that plan for the entire month. I will document my experience along the way and share with you all of my success and failures. At the end of the month I will do a complete review of the program.




“It’s about taking stock, facing who you really are, and getting going again.”

Excerpt From: Karen Amster-Young, Pam Godwin & Barbara Hannah Grufferman. “The 52 Weeks.”




Im stuck. Or maybe frozen. I’m not sure.

Its been a week or two since I have written a post because I wasn’t so sure of what to say anymore.

Yes, I have been working out, but I have been eating like shit and gaining weight at an epic rate. We have been traveling, but that too I haven’t had the energy to post about.

I recently left my position at the school district I had been teaching at since I graduated college in 2004. I needed a change. I needed a new challenge. I felt stifled creatively. It was time to leave.

I have always been a fairly successful person when it came to employment, but I have always been very careful to take minimal risk. I have so many amazing ideas I’ve been dying to explore for the longest time and now is my chance!

But since I left I have been stuck, unable to get these ideas off of the ground. I have literally shut down completely and every little life task seems completely overwhelming.

I think I’m scared. I think I am frozen in fear of the unknown, and instead of jumping in the water, I am too scared to even dip my toe.

But here’s the thing. I am a perfectionist who tends to put WAY too much pressure on herself and I don’t give myself enough credit for what I already do. I have to remind myself (or have my friends gently do so) that my boys are still very young and need me more than I realize. I have a son who has some unresolved health issues we are knee deep in trying to figure out. My husband works up to 60 hours a week, and I am my boys’ rock, (all 3 of them)!

These aren’t excuses. This is life. My life.

So I am going to do my very best to wake up each morning and be the best mother, wife, daughter, and friend as possible, while beginning to slowly realize my dreams. But if it doesn’t happen this week, this month, or even this year, that’s ok, I’m ok. And I will repeat this to myself over and over until I start believing it.

I hope you will continue on this journey of self exploration with me and seeing where this little blog and my big ideas take me. Have you ever been stuck? What did you do to become unstuck?


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Sunset La Jolla


Until next time,



Workout Criteria

So in case you don’t stalk my Instagram yet (follow me @flabbutfab) I will let you in on a little secret. I am kind of a gym rat. I have always wanted to be one of those people who could workout in their garage, but I just can’t. I have tried the at home thing and we have sunk way too much money into weights, a treadmill, and lots of DVD’s that are all collecting dust in our garage.


Messy Garage


Womp. Womp.

I have finally realized that I just need to share my bubbly adorable personality with the world so essentially working out at home would be a disservice to others.

While I have literally ALWAYS struggled with my weight, I have really never struggled with my fitness. I love to try new workouts, and I can pretty much hang with most programs. Well, except for sticking to only 1.

Over the years I have tried whatever was the newest and shiniest trend. From this I was able to figure out my niche exercise wise and there are definitely some non fitness factors that play into where I ended up working out these days.

There is of course the social aspect. I’m not looking to find my next bestie at the gym but I also don’t want the person next to me to be so balls to the wall that I don’t feel comfortable cracking a joke. I just want a place with good energy and people who don’t take themselves too seriously.

Obvi it needs to be clean, and have ample parking. Now with the kiddos, childcare is a definite plus. Finally, I am a class gal. I love a good fitness class and I am 1,000x more likely to hit the gym if there is a class or a trainer waiting for my. Mama needs some accountability.

What do you look for in a gym?

Until next time,


It’s beginning to look a lot like Summer!

Good Morning!

I hope you all had an awesome weekend. Even though the boys have three more days of school, it is basically summer time in these parts. On Friday I met up with my friend Gina for lunch. We went to Mitch’s in Point Loma. The place is SO good and right on the water. The smell of the ocean, and watching the tourists made me feel  like I was temporary plucked out of reality, and into Michelada heaven!




Saturday was karate, Costco, closing day of baseball,


Little League


more fish tacos,


Snack Shack Fish Tacos


and swimming at grandma’s.


Pool Time


On Sunday the kid’s school held an end of the year party on the bay. It was great to see the kiddos having so much fun outside. (Not pictured, yet again tacos for lunch!)

Sunday night was the usual. Laundry, cooking, getting ready for the week.

Are you feeling the Summer vibe yet? Any fun plans coming up in the next few months?

If you haven’t entered the giveaway for 4 free tickets to the San Diego International Boat Show, click HERE and leave a comment to enter. The winner will be announced on Friday!

Until next time,


Namaste home no more!

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Hey! Happy Hump Day! I hope you are enjoying this beautiful weather. My oldest son had two teeth pulled today and they had to sedate him so we’ve been chillaxing around the house. Tonight I am going to hit up yoga class so I thought this would be a good opportunity to share this post.

So a few months ago I blogged about how at a yoga class the front desk clerk thought that I was pregnant. I laughed it off because I really didn’t think I looked pregnant and it’s a super ignorant thing to assume unless I am literally crowning in your face. I don’t even know if then you should even say anything?!?

I digress.

Last week a girlfriend invited me back to the same studio for yoga. That’s when it dawned on me that I had not been back there since the “Incident.” I actually wore a sweatshirt when I checked in and walked past the front desk before we could chit chat.

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When I got about half way through the class I remembered how much I enjoyed it and how good I felt. I realized that it did affect me on a deeper level than I realized. I think I was afraid to go back and have it happen again. I was so mad at myself for letting some d-bag keep me from coming to class for 3 months.

This reminded me of the power of people’s words and how much they can affect others. I have a tendency to say what is on my mind, when it’s on my mind even if my opinion wasn’t necessarily solicited.

I too need to be more cognizant of the things I say to others, and try to be more like a duck and let the things assholes say to me role off my back!

Until next time!


Putting myself on time out.

Happy Monday! Hope everyone had as fantastic a weekend as I did!

After a CRAZY work week I crashed out at about 9:30 on Friday night.

Saturday morning I hit the gym and the boys had Karate and Baseball.

I spent the rest of the day/night with my bestie Camille. We both recently turned 25 again for the tenth time. To celebrate we had a girl’s staycation. This was only about the fourth time in 7 years that I spent a night away from all of my boys. If I’ve ever gone away overnight it’s been with my husband. I’ve always had so much mom guilt about leaving them. But let me tell you, this weekend was glorious.

We grabbed lunch:

The Calexxican from Naked Cafe

Then Massages and Pedis:

And movies/ snacks/  room service at a cute boutique hotel nearby:

The perfect day! And it was a great opportunity for my husband to have some quality time with the boys. They had a beach picnic at the cliffs:


Sunday afternoon was spent at the baseball field and getting ready for the coming week. Have you ever taken a mom “time out?” I think I could get used to it!

Until next time,